"nosebleed nonsense"

i felt down today. now i'm a-ok. the absence of a real good thing is a real bad thing. why do i prefer chaos over permanence? when people say "they're burnt out," they're not doing something they truly love. i'm sometimes burnt out. but i haven't been lately. just a lot to do. and times are hard. my biggest fear is that i'll never find something that i truly love. love is a word i will try not to dilute so much in daily conversations. thanks for offering to talk. i'll take it up maybe. but if i don't, it's nothing personal. i'm slowly learning that showing my soul so much only gets me hurt. and i got beat up by a girl today. nosebleed and all. but it's cool. i'm down with getting hurt. so i really should share with you... but you don't understand what i've been through. but maybe it's time.