"filled with songs"

there are times
when i'm too scared to turn on my discman
let all my songs do their beautiful dance
each note carries a weight
a dream
and the melodies flow through my ears
into my veins
and fill my heart with a beat
a music
a reminder
of the things i wish for
and they feel so much bigger than i can be
i'm left still
afraid of the songs' drifting unattainability

but there other times
when i turn the volume up so high
fill myself with songs and songs
until i can't even hear myself say
'let's rock"

[luca and jimmy, we had good ice cream.]